Elements of my frustration include:
- I do not feel like my ability to do the movement at the pace of the class is improving.
- I know that I have the physical strength to do these moves. I tend to believe that I am one of the physically strongest people in the class, true or not.
- I know what will help me, but it is either not realistic to ask of the teacher or most people don't see how it will help.
- I know I am able to do the movements, but simply cannot feel and remember them.
I really think that a slow, physical and verbal run-through of the piece will be most helpful. Reviewing the previous class day's material isn't helpful because we don't repeat it. We don't need to stop and do the first x-number of counts and then repeat, just start at the beginning, go straight through to the end. My anxiety doesn't get as high in this situation either. That keeps my brain free to do other things besides get upset that I'm not getting it as quickly as the rest of the class.
My gut tells me that we are going to repeat the stuff we did today because it didn't seem to be going well for the rest of the class. Autumn kept saying that confidence was the biggest problem, trust our bodies to do what they know to do... She is so right, but it is easier said than done. So I'm going to watch the video again today and commit to do it tomorrow. I'll check back in here after I do... If I don't, then I didn't do it and I don't deserve any extra help. So there.